Tuesday, August 29, 2006
errrrrrrrrr....... Is time for me to update another blog. I feel so hurt. Is since like i get so tired with friends around me. I don't understand what i had did wrong. I just hates to be in this people aroun d. Some people think i am very irratating. I just felt is there are the one.Maybe is time for me to get going of my study then joinning them so much. And thing may go better.It since like they doesn't like me why still join them. I feel so upset with the class. In the first place last week external class. I am so upset with the people in my class. Is like was not my fault to coz them late for class. Actually there put on the blame on me. why did they do that to me. Is so really unfair to me. I tink there are so childish. I do feel that some of them doesn't know how to be more lady like. I really hope that maybe something that can share there share but some unseem stuff should not be share then keep to themselves. I am having enough of everything. What can i do? Ya.. What am i suppose to be here for. I am sure wat my pastor had thought a lesson on we r here is hard to make people please and I am here to please GOD. I should not have make my life miserable. I tink is the best of all. I felth church friend are the one who is always your friend. And in sch doesn't need to have alot of friend. I tink that Faye and Ally is really a friend to me. I am so glad to have both of them. there are the one who i treasure more. Is good enough i tink. Heehee... Maybe tmr i shld stay in class then going out with them. I also tink that when they go out and eat there won't consider people around you whether have that money to eat outside expensive food. Is like there think about themselves. Not everyone like than very ruch lor. Aiya... Dun wan talk about them anymore. I hope i could see my nice sister Linda as soon as possible. I miss my dance friends. hehe... I also miss my deareast Ganmummy who always share my sorrow and happiness with me. I really wan to see her soon... She will onli be back in singapore on the 31st Aug.. I hope could able to go airport and pick them hehe... Unless i have no class that day.
12:02 PM!Y
Sunday, August 20, 2006
hello.. Since like sometime i never update my blog... Today i want to update how i spend my time.. Haha..Today was a sunday. I went to church in the morning. I planned to be in church by 8.30am. Ended i am late. I was there about 9.05am.. haha... Cause saturday i slept at 2.30am in the morning. I was doing my work. Then i went to church i seated with my friends. I feel sian.. but i try to tell myself to be awake. Cause today sunday is so different. Is our church 20th Aninversary. i tink the team that had put up the dance was good. 3 cheerz for the team. Keep up the good work. I enjoy myself in the service. After service my cell leader decide to go home and rest cause she is unfeeling well. I decide to stay for 2nd service for worship. To support the team that they have to dance. And also wanna see the group putting up the hat dance. It was so nice. i hope i could able to take the video of it. After the 2nd service worship i was taking a slow walk to the MRT station. Hoping some1 will call me and we could go out. When i going to enter the MRT before i scan my EZ link card. There is a message. So i read the message it was my dearest sister Linda. She ask me whether did i bring scrabble. I thot she want to lent from me. I give her a call back asking her you looking for me? I was wondering how come she noe i did stay for second service. she say she saw me.So she told me that her friend postponed the meeting time to 5. I say to bad i did not bring. So she ask me where am i going. I say going to look for place to eat but have nt thought of going where. I asked her where are you going while waiting for your friend. She answered she is going to the town area. I was like can i join you. She say sure. So i waited for her. So we decided before her friend come we should go for a walk. Then i remember i need to get a plain top for my printmaking class. Then she say she wanna get a white top. So we went together and shop for it. Finally i got what i want but she did not. Then cause of me she got another top that same with me. That is green in colour. After shop for the thing that i need she say maybe we like to read we can go library or Kinokuniya... We went to the library. I was doing research she was reading magazine. Ended she fallen asleep. hahaha... I trying to br tricky by wanna taking a picture of her while sleeping. In time i wanna the press she wakes up. Then she ask me to delete it then i told her i did not take it yet... Not to make her angry i decided not to do it. So later while she wakes up we decided to leave the place. She ask me whether did she has a sleepy face i say a bit. Feel like giving her a hug. Hee... She is so nice. I thank god for her. I hope that every week i could spend time with her. She is lika a dearest sister of mind. I am so happy while i spend time with her. Hee. I hope next week we could do the same too. Then we can also play scrabble. hehe.. God loves her so do I. She is a sister to me. God has blessing me so much with a sister like her.
9:19 PM!Y
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
HeiZ, In school so sian. I feel thing is different. All my work drive me crazy. Is like always got so many homework. Will i be able to finish it on time men. I think it has drive me crazy. I feel so tired. Today is only Tuesday. I went to this International church prayer meeting. I am so happy to be there. Although i feel so sian. I feel i don't know why i get so Jealous so easily. Nowaday i feel so different. Maybe everything has start from me. I don't know whether am i right. I always thinking of joining the dance friends. They since to make me feel excited for God. I know that is good for me. I hope that i could be excited for my cell group too.Although i grow up from this group. I hope 1 day we in my CG will get excited meeting each other. Hopefully my CG leader will understand how i feel. I am working hard to build this group bigger. Is also that we will grow into a better group. Who can tell me why do i feel that way.
12:30 AM!Y
Saturday, August 05, 2006
Ello. Today was a very sickening day i have. I can't go anywhere much. juz staying at home the whole day doing homework and online. Until now i have nt finish all my work. I am like taking my own sweet time. Coz i have no ideas for 3D. And i tink everyone in my class anti 3D. I am like going crazy with it lor.. I am so bore at home. I am going crazy... Hehe.. I am so excited is sunday. Where is the time I woild worship our heavenly Father. Hehe.. I hope that i can dun need to do my work. Sick and tired. I did nt have a good day today.
12:02 AM!Y
Friday, August 04, 2006
Today is going toward 5 Aug. I don't have class today. So i decided not to go out. And stay home doing my homework. And so through out this morning until now i had be trying to do 3D project. I keep cutting wrongly. And spoiling the box. So i keep redo until really give up. Can i dun do. I tink i never like 3d class. Until now i did not dismental one nice want. Who can help me. Can i do this and fail this moduel. My frenz told me that if we fail this i had to stay for another semster. I dun want. How. Who can help me.
12:58 AM!Y
Thursday, August 03, 2006
hi........ Today i went for dance. I am so happy to be there. I did not heard a very good new but i am just praying that God will not allow our group member not to change. I really serious think that we all had really bond with our team mates. The relationship is build up. I am sure. Although we doesn't know each other very long but we build our fellowship.I hope that Kelvin will understand us. In this point. I want to be in linda team. God i pray that u will allow kelvin final discussion is that allow us to carry on in our own team. As i am sure we all of ud like our own team so much. I enjoy so much with my team pepole. GOd i pray all this in your name. Amen..
12:50 PM!Y
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Yo, Finally i come home. I can go online. Although i got a lot of work to do. I am sure god is here to give me my creativity. Amen.. Although is since the second week of school. I get along well in class. I am trying to cop with my school work. Although sometime i feel a bit lazy but i am sure i will get rid of my lazy. Today ia actually had cell meeting. I got very excited. Ended up i did not feel good. As i know everyone are very tired cause have been waking early but sleep late. Today 1 actually complaint that can have cell faster to end and the other keep saying very tired. I try to be patient and doesn't want to say anything. Ended i could not take it. Coz since the start i did not see the attitude of my cell change. I finally tell her off that i know you r tired and everyone do. Can u stop complaint. She is like always sleepy and everything. I am just wondering why can't my CG give full focus to God and listening to his word. I really don't know what to do. My group doesn't excited for god. Can i be somewhere else. I am als having struggle can i be in somewhere that people would motitivate me to praising the lord. And i don't knnow whether what i did is right but i am just telling off. People r not happy about what i tell them. I even feel hurt to listen to ppl say ya lah ya lah... I don't feel i am motitvate by people. I am so sad. Although i know that Linda told me to give time but how long shld i give. Is it forever. Or should i be selfish and think about myself that i could grow better in somewhere else or shld i ask my CG leader to seperate me with them? Mean i will have seperate CG with them. Hai.............. God please tell me what is right me to do.... SadZ
9:29 PM!Y
