Sunday, April 29, 2007
Plateform..Today i got dance.. So had to be in church by 8 am.. hee.. So most people was late. Due to the rain. Was very nice to sleep when is rainy day. haha.. When i reach is only a few of us. Is only team C people will around. As i was so happy and very rush.. So i went in.. And prepare of myself. I take the shorter time to makeup and also also change. haha.. My dearest sister given me a smile. I hope i could given her a hug.
So people start to arrive at about 8.30am... We start warm up. Lead by a guy.. After that we went on stage to get our formation rite. Then i felt everyone was well prepare for the worshipping him. I always felt that our dance group got unity. As one dance mates came and forgotten bring her costume. so we did not like did not care and say then u can't go on stage but a few of us came out with some solution. And helping each other. As we encourage each other... So later we found our own solution. As we decided some of them onli dance for one song then we will able to exchange.
So we manage to change.. So all of us still able to go up on stage. I thank god that my leader did not stop anyone from dancing.. As i trust god that he will the one who given us this solution. As today i really feel that the angel in heaven is clapping with us. As we had a wonderful god.
Although there is a mistaken that happen.. I was in the video and i am not sure why am i looking around. I was just behind pastor Joel... Oh no.. sure look very aweful hei.. So some of dance mates ask me to be more conscious when i am on plateform. Although i make a mistake i still wan to give praises to god. Overall everything was good. As all of us had the energy and need to smiles. hee.. If not sure look ugly..
And the other service we onli able to dance for one song at first. As we had nt enough time to prepare. last mintues pastor sing a song that there is alreadi dance step but nt everything we remember. So we dance freely.. At first pastor say we don dance tt. that onli sing for minstry part. We will like huh.. then later he saw we so excited so he decided to have tt song.. We all jump up with smile... praise god.. So all the dance look goods.. I think the second service are better.. hehehe.... We encounter god more.. I can't wait to see the video men..
Labels: Plateform
11:44 PM!Y
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Actually today while everything come together.
I really start to doubt where is He? And how do i know whether he is really real? As my leader always tell me that he will b here for me and do all thing for me. He would not give thing that i could not do. So i am thinking how much i really know him and how much is he real. As for me.. I was in alot of project and thing that should not come now had came. I am so tired. Really wonder how he will able help me. As he is not like someone who i could meet and talk to. *I mean face to face.) So i really wonder is he here helping me.
I felt i'm lose the trust and faith in him that he would do all thing for me. So i decided to nail down and start worship him. I could not able to encounter him well.. I feel so lonely and lose. I start to cry out. Who can share wit me how real our god is and wonderful he is. As i really could not see him in me. I am totally lose. And dare not telling anyone about it. So i actually could only share a bit of it with one my friend.
I does not want to stand on my own strength. Coz i know one day will break down and would not want to go church. And i would be in the darkness.. As i also know that when this happen my life would been more miserable. As i had experince this when 2 years ago where i cry badly and also when i was primary 4. So would not want it to happen again. How do i prevent this?
Decided to read bible and prayed and ask where are you, I need you to be in my life. And do forgive me for doubting. As i don't want to go back to the darkness. Please come and save me.How could i believe that it happen again.. I does not want to stand in my own understanding but to trust you and know you well.. I want to rise up like a shining star. I want to love you in all ways.Please save me.
If anyone who read this. Can share with me and tell me what should do. I do still feel lose in heart and trusting in all thing i do. Please come and help me for my difficuilt time.
Labels: How do i know where is he?
11:17 AM!Y
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
I was a bit upset for pass few day.. Alot of nice friends , sisters and ppl from dance came and ask me. There given me some suggestion. And alot of them given me a wakes up reminder. And especially some nice friend. haha.. Don't wanna talk about the pass...
I actually went to print some photo from my dance and i did a special photo of me and some close friend.. I like the photo tt i had printed. Coz is meaningful to me. I like it. I Came back my aunt ask me who is tt? I smile and walk into my room. haha.. She must be guessing who is tt.. hahaha.. I am going to tell her. Before i get myself in deep shit.
As i know time really fly. I onli had 4 more day before my assessment. So i am going to use time wisely.. Got to pen off..
12:11 AM!Y
Saturday, April 07, 2007
Today i spend my day at home...This is my last week before my assessment week. Although i feel very stress.. I am very slow in work.. I think i got to work fast. Coz i left not much time to complete all my work.. I feel like giving up.. I need help.. Who can help me.. Why am i so stress.. I hope my leader would be able to give me idea what to do to help me.. but she is nt... I am like so tires... Life is such miserable when came to final work..
Help help help...
I had a frenz is sec 3 now. He does not care about his studies.. Everyday onli know how to play games... I really hope game will help him pass his exam.. I really wonder how his life next time.. hahaha, Anyway he is the one who is in control of his life. If he still carry on i am sure he will regret when he is even older.. That will be too late lor!!
10:12 PM!Y
