My feeling
I am having some sad feeling that inside of me that I don’t know who can I share too. I think everyone got their own problem. So I choose to write in my blog and express myself. It will make me feel better. I did hope to show anyone but to God and myself.
So anyone who has view this can just ignore this.
I actually went back to work in my own company that I work with. 2 disappointment that I hear from my boss. Although I did not expect that from her. Really hope it does not come from her mouth. Someone told me. I should not take it too hard. I should just take it to improve myself. So that I will be more professional. As I take what she say. So decided to improve myself by doing better.
My boss told me that actually she was very disappointed by me. In my work and also my behaviors at work. I really don’t know what is wrong. My boss says that you had to take up the leadership to do my work and also when time to be serious then serious. I will have another intern that is coming in. To take up some of my work. So I had to show a good example to her. I felt that I really had to learn. Then I do accept that. But not long I came back I sense there is some misunderstand between my boss and one of my colleagues. I and not sure what is going on.
This few day I heard from my other thing is that this colleague who assign me to be his assistance so that he would able to take of me in my work. They told me that this colleague mood is up and down, And my lady boss and the other colleague say they don’t want make it as they are siding me and don’t want my senior to put the blame on me. So I had to finish my part on time. I really don’t know what had happening. Why is he changing a lot? I feel so frighten to go work each day. And also did not have the heart to go work. I feel such disappoint in myself. He is no longer the person that I know. And the when he saw my friend portfolio he say about my work I feel so upset. He makes me feel I am lousy.
I do not know how to express myself. I really hope this way will help me express it. And I really does not want to hurt anyone, Sometime it make me feel that whether I should stop working ma.. I really feel so sad that each day I could only break down to cry.
God’s anything that you want me to learn from there ma. I really can’t leave any longer. Maybe expectation that given to me id higher. Why is hard to make someone happy ma… I know expectation will make me a better person. I am wonder when he behind me he is just like a devil and when he is in front of me he is like an angel. How could I solve my problem?
As listen to what my other colleague say I am sure this guy he is going to complaint about ne again… What can I do? Hei.. I really wonder how I am going to present my work to my boss. I really don’t know how much could I finish. Do my best ba.
